The Human Condition-

How do we bear the burden of this wieght?

What did we do to deserve this fate?

Constantly watched.

Constantly criticized.

The human condition haunts us all.

I see it in all our eyes...

Everybody hurts.

Everybody suffers. 

Why can't we suffer together?

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The Blade I stole-

The silver embossed cross that was once a symbol of peace

is the victim of my stare

The cardinal red shell 

The color of the blood shed 

I hate this inanimate object more than any person I've met

I hate it for what it stands for

What it did

 

I'll never understand

I don't know If I want to

It is now a symbol of everything I hate

Everything I don't want to be

Something no one deserves

Do you feel it?

Deep within your center

Your very core

That's your soul

Do you see it?

It' s blinding white

It's terrible beauty

Do not be afraid 

to show others your soul

it will remain untarnished

and you will receive respect

for people will see you

for you

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Shadows abstain

Feelings remain

and life barrels on 

like a run away train

There's a fine line 

seperating fun and

self-destruction

Escapes from reality

are sometimes impossible to return from

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She is a novelty

a plaything to him

he knows

she doesn't have a clue

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I have something to say.

I cause pain everyday.

How did I get this way?

Not mom nor dad,

A victim of mass media, perhaps?

All I want,

is happiness for all.

I can only do so much.

No matter what I do,

Someone gets hurt.

Someone feels ugly.

If they only knew

who the ugly one is

Hm, where was I?

There's so much going on. So much I should be doing. The first round of poetry I produced was pretty emo. I wasn't worried though. You just have to keep the words flowing out of the pen and eventually something good will come out. I've been looking at people differently. I feel like I have more  insight into people now than ever before. Communication fascinates me. I'm glad it's my major. However, I'm not so sure I want to walk the path of a journalist anymore. Fuck it, here's some shit I wrote down.

I will burn my pride.

See no fear.

Focus my mind.

Seek out truth. 

Burn my lies.

Or tattoo them to my forehead,

acknowledging my faults and failures.

We are in constant motion,

dancing with our evils.

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I did it. 

I went for it.

I cut open my torso,

and spilled my guts.

I felt so good to purge.

But something went wrong,

the spilling did not stop.

So I went to bed Saturday night,

with my guts all over the floor.

It's going to take a while,

to clean up this mess.

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I think you know that there will be consequences.

I know there will be consequences.

Did you know there will be consequences?

Yea me neither.

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Physically exhausted.

Emotionally spent.

The silence is my true ally.

The loneliness my only friend.

Yesterday I was in my prime.

Today I'm a piece of shit.

Can I not find equilibrium?

homeostasis?

balance?

happiness?

freedom?

What am I doing?

This is where I'm going to post shitty poetry I write in class when I'm supposed to be listening to lecture. I'm not going to tell many people about it. Hopefully, some publisher will stumble upon it and offer me tons of money for my writing and I'll never have to work again. Here's to dreaming. I want feedback. Tell me what sucks, what has potential and whether or not I just quit. This is a sneak peek into my deepest and sometimes darkest thoughts. Poetry is my therapy. It keeps me sane. So if it sounds a little crazy sometimes, that's the point. I'll begin posting soon. Much Love.